Yep as a mother of three rambunctious, entergetic, athletic, T-E-S-T-O-S-T-E-R-O-N-E filled boys, I am quite perplexed that the dreaded phone calls are not a weekly occurrence in my household. If someone were to walk by our house at any given moment it would sound like a WWE arena. In all honesty I may have encouraged the boys to duke it out on their own a time or two! I know......look at them they look so loving, and sweet.......never judge a book by its cover is all I am going to say.
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
The Dreaded Phone Call
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Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Three Little Words That Can Pack a Punch
Sure the words I LOVE YOU are three little words that roll right off the tongue , but what do they truly mean when they are said over and over and OOOOVVVEEERRR? Do they loose their value? Do they become part of your everyday ritual that they loose their meaning? When those words come out of your mouth do they seem like the are necessary just like the breath that you took to say them? Are they as easily spoken as ordering your daily coffee.......a grande Americano chai hazelnut caramel macchiato, half-caf, half decaf, one equal, one raw sugar, 2 Sweet'N'Low, skinny organic soy breve with no foam, hot a little hotter than normal, extra whip, and leave room on the top so I can add my own extras!!!! I think the three simple words I LOVE YOU become so simply brainless words that they just come out without thought.
Until you have kids and they begin to say those three little words to you.......I WUV YOU!! Oh man that pulls on a mommy's heartstrings like no other. But then as they get older they say it more often and more often and MMMMOORRREEE OFTEN. You can't help but think your child has become an amazing ventriloquist as those words come out of their mouth with little to no effort. Then they learn to use those words to their advantage when they 'WANT SOMETHING'! Then you begin to wonder if they know the true meaning of those three little but oh so powerful words, or do they just say it out of habit and out of routine and out of hearing everyone else say it? We have to instill a meaning to go along with those words.....we can't let them become habitual like changing our underwear (unless your a teenager then it becomes more of a quarterly event), or like making our bed, or like becoming a necessity like sleeping, eating or learning. Then one day out of the blue your child comes and pops up on your lap, throws their arms around you, pecks you on the check and deeply, and meaningfully spews out I LOVE YOU!!! Talk about tug on the heart.....or one day you will be having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day you know the kind of day where if anything could go wrong it does, and you are desperately trying to hide it from your children but they know. You go in your room and crawl in the closet behind all those clothes that you keep holding onto that you know you will NEVER EVER be able to fit into and start to sob uncontrollably not because the clothes won't or don't fit but because it's one of those days, and okay the whole clothes situation isn't helping, so you start to sob harder. You forgot to take tissue with you into hiding so you have to make a life or death decision to either wipe your nose on the shirt you have had since high school that clearly doesn't fit three kids and a marriage later but you can't get rid of because at one time it made your boobs look really really good, or you have to come out of hiding to get some tissue. Okay you decide its best to not use the shirt that will never get used again and come to your senses and remove yourself from your little tantrum corner and that's when you notice the little letter laying on your pillow. You see the words I LOVE written over and over and over again on these little heart shaped pieces of paper and all of a sudden you realize you cannot possibly be having a down in the dumps day. My children have all gotten into the habit (UGH there I go again making it a habit, when it should never ever be a habit) of saying those three little but oh so powerful words "I LOVE YOU" several times in a row just to make sure in case we missed the last thousand times they said it. These three little but oh so powerful words cannot be taken or said lightly.
A couple of weeks ago my husband went on a week long TDY (Temporary Duty Assignment) to California, I know that sounds rough huh, yeah let's not feel sorry for him. Anyway he has been gone on several TDY's over the past few years and more times than not I welcome the little break. I kind of get a little vacation myself well minus the mom/dad duties that follow me 24/7. I tend to slack on my duties as a mother and on keeping myself presentable. I often make the kids tend to their own meals, hey in all fairness they are 15, almost 12 and almost 8......so cereal for 15 meals straight didn't seem to bother any of us. The vacuum and broom also had a little R&R, if I don't feel like getting dressed I won't and I save a weeks worth of makeup by not putting any on. During this time of separation I go back to the saying of "absence makes the heart grow fonder." I like the way the Roman poet Sextus Propertius says it "Always toward absent lovers loves tide stronger flows." This can't be any truer for our little spats of time away. I also think that it has helped us grow in our love for each other and to not take each other and the time we have together for granted. Every time my husband leaves on his TDY's and comes home, it seems like we have been apart for months. Okay it doesn't help that I am a single parent of a teenager, a tween and a 7 year old who acts like a teen during those TDY's. That could quite possibly be the reason for the length of time to feel like an eternity. Upon my husbands return we have lots of alone time, deep conversations, and we pass those three simple but powerful words I LOVE YOU back and forth like we are children and each of us has to say it last.
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Thursday, March 19, 2015
Marriage Sucks!
Now before you all start tweeting, texting, emailing, instagramming the latest gossip of a marriage in trouble please let me explain the title of this blog. I think it is so easy for people to glamorize their marriages, I know I am guilty of posting romantic pictures of my husband and I in some far off place holding each other tight locked in a passionate kiss, or posting sentimental here say of how much we are in love or showing the world the flowers HE surprised me with just because. So yes, I am guilty of shouting on the mountain top I am in love, BUT yes there is a but.....all that doesn't come without daily work, effort, struggles, ups, downs, sometimes more downs than ups, "I'm sorry" yes lots and lots of sorry's. There are many days that I feel marriage is overrated, I wonder how the Jones' keep it all together....oh wait the grass is not always greener on the other side. The Jones's yes you know that family we all so want to keep up with and they seem to have everything so perfectly perfect in every sense of the word, and I wonder how they do it. Then I realize there is no PERFECT marriage in the sense that they have all of their ducks in a row and none of them ever stray from that damn row.
We can all go back to the day it all began and we met our significant other, our soul mate, the love of our lives and it reminds us of the way we felt when we were in each others presence. The way we looked at each other with such passion, love and desire. The way we touched each other and how it made our hearts skip a beat, the way it made us feel when little love notes where placed all over in surprise locations just to remind us how much we are loved. The days of holding hands, wanting to cuddle, needing to be touched and desires of wanting to be in their arms forever. All those things came so naturally and were a part of our every day functioning. Then we got comfortable with one another I mean really really comfortable. So comfortable the things we feared doing in front of the other just started happening because we were so comfortable. Things like belching, using the bathroom with the door wide open, cleaning out our noses without trying to hide it, scratching privates, you know our true human nature started to shine brightly with golden halo rings around it. Not that that is a bad thing, it's good to be comfortable with the one we love, but somehow being comfortable took away from some of the romance, and we are left to wonder when did things stray south?
It begins to seem like we are treading water and trying so hard to bring that initial feeling of love back that we are missing the new love that has been created. So he doesn't make my heart pitter patter in the mornings, well he does but not it the sense of pitter patter bat the eyelashes. It's more the feeling of beating out of your chest because he's such a happy chipper let's get this day started morning person and I'm well.......so NOT!! Or when he tells me I am beautiful for the 7 millionth time it begins to feel like a broken record player, and I roll my eyes because after all he married me and he is obligated to tell me I am beautiful right......wrong! When I scratch his head, or rub his shoulders, or place a kiss on his neck it doesn't take him back to the feelings he had for me twenty years ago, it takes him to the feelings of love he has for me now. Why are we constantly seeking the love that we had when we first met? We are not the same people we were ten, fifteen or twenty years ago why should our love be the same? We so want to put on blinders to the way we are loved, loving, and wanting to love that we are missing the wonderful love that is blooming and growing right in front of us. Why are we not seeing it? Life that's why.
Then we decide we are not complete until we throw some kids into the mixture and if you really want to test your marriage this is the perfect way to do it. Nothing is ever the same after little Johnny comes along and it's no longer just you and him it's now we three then us four and if you haven't learned after becoming a party of five then you just keep going. Don't get me wrong I love my kids to death and I am so grateful for the blessing of them because more than anything in the world I wanted to be a wife and mommy. But yes......another BUT there is no lying about the change of dynamics children will place on your marriage. Date nights what are those, quite long amounts of bedroom time just the two of you.....ummm sure if your sleeping. You begin to always think little eyeballs are staring at you from under the door. Then when they begin to talk they will knock okay bang on the closed locked door and yell "I know what you guys are doing in there" and if that isn't a mood killer. Then they reach the age where they really do know what you are doing in there but yet they don't knock or announce their presence AND you forgot to lock the door and well yep alone time FAIL. You begin to see that life no longer is revolving around marriage but around being parents. We start to drift and it takes a moment in time to wake us up and draw us closer so we are not just running through the motions. After all it was your love that created the kids in the first place. Once again a new love is being formed and you no longer see him as that sexy single stud you did twenty years ago. You begin to grow a new love for the man as you watch him interact with your kids, your heart fills with joy when you see him on the basketball court as he teaches his boy for the first time how to dribble a basketball, or at the park teaching him to ride a bike or out back throwing a football or in the bedroom teaching him how to be a man and how to throw a punch in case one day he needs to protect himself. At this moment in time the man of your dreams has suddenly become the hottest man on the planet. See that love that you felt all those years ago has not gone anywhere, it's just changed its a different kind of love you just have to notice it. It's when we begin to convince ourselves that that love is gone that marriage sucks. Marriage isn't easy and it seems like the days of our young love are gone and that this is what we get for the rest of our lives, but it doesn't have to be like that. We just need to open our eyes to the new love that is forming, growing, and changing to see that our hearts have always been full of love just a different kind of love. Marriage sucks in the sense that it's not perfect, and it is a work in progress, and it takes daily effort from both of us. Let's think about it for a minute.....there are approximately 7 billion people in the world and the two of us, the two of you, the two of them found each other.......
There are days that yes marriage just stinks, just like being a parent sticks and you have convinced yourself you don't know what you are doing, being a grown up stinks, and we continue to ask where is never never land, being an employee stinks doing hard labor for little pay, being a boss stinks having to dictate who does the hard work for little pay, but it's what you do with that day that makes every other day of being married, a parent, grown up, employee, boss all so worth it.
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Friday, February 22, 2013
Ringing in a New Year in a New Country
It was a successful day at the water park. I had three boys who were officially worn out!
DAY THREE: Today was the day to go out and venture into Buda and Pest. Although it was rough going in the morning (I think the boys may have had too much water park the day before). We did make it down to the city center to take in some of Budapest's beauty, although it was another COLD day. Our first stop was across the Chain Bridge on the Buda side, where we found Clark Hotel on Clark Adam road.
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